October 30, 2013: Why me?

As I sit at my laptop and think of what to write, I think about how my week and day has been. Not Great but not horrible. I was able to tolerate the week so far but yet again, its not over yet. I still have my dreaded Thursday. I have 3 classes tomorrow which all have at least a 2 hour break in between them. Just to show you, this is how my Thursday looks:

7:00-my alarm goes off
7:15-my mom calls to wake me up
7:30-check my technology (games included)
8:20- get off my ass (after watching TV and eating breakfast)
8:45- finally decide on an outfit for school and brush my teeth, hair and wash my face
9:15-hopefully out the door
9:45-hopefully be at school, walking to my first class
10:00-11:15- Criminal Justice class
11:45-1:20- bullshit around and wait for time to come that I have to leave yet again
1:30- hopefully be out the door
2:00-2:50- Freshman Seminar (serious waste of time)
3:15-4:45-bullshit around yet again
5:00-hopefully be out the door yet again
5:30-8:00- Communications (first hour is wasted by the professor ranting on about unnecessary things)

Now you can see why I hate Thursdays so much; Its because it is non stop like I am running around like an animal. On the other hand, when Thursdays are over I know that once I go to bed and wake up, its Friday and that is the day I go home for the weekend.

Tomorrow is Halloween and it is bittersweet this year. Usually every year I dress up and still trick-or-treat (I don't care if I am 18 years old) but this year since I am in college and have class all day, I can't. I wish I was back home with my parents because I used to love decorating with my mom but this year is a lot different with no one really wanting to do anything since the passing of my grandfather. Hopefully next year, I will have the chance to dress up and bring old memories back. I cant wait; only 50 more days left until I can move back home. When I move back home, I will be able to start fresh with a hopefully less stressful life.

Now to get to the question in the title of this post; Why Me? I guess I am asking this because I am wondering why I am not as happy as I usually am. I feel like I am all alone in a small box that has the label "Life". Why was I dealt this life, there has to be a reason because I truly believe that God does not do anything with out reason. Maybe this is just his way of teaching me about different hardships in life. Who knows? No one knows but God. I am not about to mess with his way of thinking so we will leave the post at that and hopefully I will be able to post after my last class tomorrow if my energy is not strained out of me.

Love you all and I will "speak" to you all tomorrow!!