For me, this holiday season is going to be the hardest. My grandfather past away on September 7th of this year and now the holidays are approaching. We got through Thanksgiving missing him greatly since my grandfather used to love making the stuffing for the Turkey. Thanksgiving this year was not as happy as it should have been since we were all shedding tears since none of us really got over his death. As we sat and ate our meal, we felt and knew that something was missing; it just didn't feel the same. Now with Christmas coming in about two weeks, that is going to be more tears that we all shed. I really don't know how we are going to be able to get through it. I don't even know how my grandmother is going to get through it, she lost her husband; she has been with him for a long time since they got married when they were very young. They would have celebrated their 50th wedding anniversary but unfortunately, my grandfather couldn't be here.
We were all extremely close to him and it was extremely hard at his funeral and then his burial. My cousins and I wrote a little something for him but I read it on behalf of them because they couldn't handle it. I almost didn't get through it; I started crying midway and it wasn't until my uncle and the priest came over and assured me that I could do it. Thanks to them, I built up enough courage to finish it and even now thinking about it makes me cry. Please look directly under for the little something we wrote, it said:
Hi Nonno,
You are a good hearted and hard working man who deserves the best.
Even though you left us you will still be with us every step of the way in our hearts and in our memory.
We wanted to remind you of all the good things we will remember you by.
You have a smile that made everyone smile, you have a laugh that filled a room with joy and just being around you was a wonderful feeling.
You will be missed greatly by all your children, grandchildren and many more.
We love you non no, we always will.
To show you how much we love you we want to give you a lucky angel rock so that you can always remember us.
I must say, that was the hardest thing I have ever had to do but after, I felt a sense of peace that he was in a better place. We all felt lucky that we were able to take one last trip with him; we took a cruise to Bermuda and we cherished every moment we had with him on the cruise. We had many laughs with him and I have a moment that is stuck in my head. I remember him sitting at the slot machines in the boat and I remember I sat with him and he was laughing and enjoying himself. He was having so much fun that he didn't want to leave. There is only one thing that is important, that is to cherish the moments we had with him and cherish the moments we will have in the future because he will always and forever be in our hearts.
He was a strong man and I praise him for that. He fought until the end and he didn't want to give up. Thankfully the whole family was there to say goodbye except that my father missed his chance. I remember it like it was yesterday, we didn't want to let him know that my grandfather had passed because my father was still driving. But I remember when he got to the hospital and my aunt, uncle and mom told him that he was gone, my father lost it. He bursted into tears and ran up and down the hospital hallway because he couldn't believe it. When he finally pulled it together and came into the room, he saw everyone with their eyes blown up and puffy because of all the crying we had done. He calmed down after a while and joined us in prayer along with the priest.
Hopefully with time we will all heal but for now we are still mourning the death of our dearest husband, father, grandfather, uncle, cousin and friend. He will forever be in our minds and hearts and we will never ever forget the time we were blessed to have with him.
We all love you Nonno and we hope you are proud with all we have done!
Love always,
Hannah
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